~All these ghost towns share a name:

cheezestix @ 2007-11-14T21:26:00

2007-11-15T02:30:26Z

why?

sweetness.

2007-08-24T03:31:54Z

Sweet words drip from sweeter mouths.
Such honey only fools accept.
I take your kindness, salt in hand.

cheezestix @ 2007-07-13T10:40:00

2007-07-13T14:53:33Z

I hate my life right now. I'm tired of jumping from house to house just to have a place to sleep.
I could go home. I could go and it would be great, but I can't. I can't give up. If I don't stick this out, I'll always be at home. And I don't want to settle for that. Plus, I've made some amazing friends here. They're so great. I'm so lucky.
I've also seen someone for who they truly are. Friends don't let people they consider their friends go homeless. But luckily I've found a place to stay for the next month.
My car is now costing over $2000. Great. If I don't get it back today I will be so upset that words can't describe it.
700 miles from home, can't find a job, homeless, carless... I feel so completely lost.

I love my mom. :)

2007-07-03T22:05:10Z

She wrote me this:

Love, miss you, can't wait to see you and chester
says the same thing. I can't wait to see the look on his face when he
sees you after 10 hours in the truck. True love at it's best.

I can't wait! She'll be here by this time tomorrow!
ahhhhhhh!

a sad day.

2007-06-01T00:33:33Z

I saw the most horrific thing today.

My mom & I were coming home from New Hartford, and as we were entering Leonardsville, we saw that a car in front of us had stopped. We went to go around it on the shoulder because we were gonna park to go to the Post office, when we saw that there was a cat that had just been hit. I saw it's painful meows as it was struggling so hard to stand. It was so.. I don't even know. I started bawling. It was so sad. I was going to go take care of it when the lady behind us pulled over and dropped it off on the side of the road. It was so sad. So sad. It's a cat. What wrong has it done in the world that it needed to suffer like that?

I can't believe the asshole who hit it didn't even stop. What a fucking piece of shit. I really hope that he/she gets what he/she deserves for doing that.

p.s.: I am SO TIRED of seeing "Knocked Up" ads. Jesus.

cheezestix @ 2007-05-28T23:32:00

2007-05-29T03:33:11Z

I need a job.

I don't write stories. Please don't laugh too hard.

2007-05-27T14:21:54Z

Murder with a twist~ of lemon!

"Would you like some more tea?" he asked.
"Please." I replied.
He sprinkled an unmarked spice on top and handed me another wedge of lemon.
"What's that spice that you're using? It has a unique flavor. Unlike anything I've ever tasted before."
"Oh, that's my special ingredient," he replied. "A cook never reveals his secrets!" His lips parted into a cool smile.
His kitchen was obnoxiously clean. It looked as though everything was strategically placed. Compared to the rest of the house, this room was out of place. Parchments were scattered on the floor of the living room. I even spotted a dead mouse under a table. He caught me looking around.
"I don't have time to do much around here, but the kitchen is the most important room of the house! It's the one room I put effort into. It's where I do most of my work." I saw something change in his eyes.
I nodded in hesitant agreement. "So you enjoy cooking?" I noticed stacks of cookbooks adorning the cupboards.
"It's my passion," he replied. "Without it I would probably go insane." He let out a rather strained laugh.
Something isn't right, I thought to myself, forcing a smile in return.
Our eyes met, and for that moment I saw something unsettling. A deviance had overcome his once welcoming eyes. I broke the silence. "Well, anyway, back to the interview!"
His eyes gleamed with a menace that matched his smile.
"Oh, before that!" he added, standing up sharply, "would you care for a slice of cake? Just baked it this morning!" The sinister look returned.
That did sound good, I thought. My stomach replied for me.
He flashed me that smile as he cut off a good-sized chunk, served, of course, with a slice of lemon.
"You really enjoy lemons, don't you?"
"I love them!" he replied. "They really bring out the flavor of whatever you're eating. And also, they're good for you kidneys! Your tasty kidneys..."
"Wait.. what?"
"They're good for your kidneys, you know?" he repeated, that gleam returning.
I didn't know, but nodded warily in agreement. "Anyway, Mr. Spritzer," I said as he sat, setting the slices of cake in front of us.
"Please. Just call me Hannibal," he said with a wave of his hand.
"Okay, Hannibal," I said uncomfortably. I readied my quill and parchment. "Who has had the greatest influence on you and your work?"
He replied without thought, "My wife."
"Lovely. Where is your wife now? I haven't seen her around."
"She passed on. She was cook-- killed in a fire a number of years ago." He sighed. "She had the sweetest heart..." He licked his lips as the chilling look in his eyes returned.
"Oh, I didn't know. I'm very sorry to hear that."
"Yes, it was very delic-- tragic. Very tragic." His eyes shifted down. "Will you excuse me?"
"Sure, anything you need."
He stood up swiftly, not making a sound, and shuffled out of the room.
What an odd man, I thought to myself.
Minutes passed with no sign of his return. Tapping my foot, I looked around the kitchen. "I am in need of a good recipe to cook for my husband's birthday." I stated aloud.
Slowly rising from the chair, I walked toward the cupboards. Opening the first cookbook I saw, I cringed. The filthy book had no title and looked as though it was made before the Great shift. Flipping carefully through, I came to a page marked with a single black feather. This must be what he's cooking next, I thought, as I skimmed down the page. My heart skipped a beat. It couldn't be! Disbelief painted my face. The next thing on his list was..."kidney pie?!"
"Oh, you found it," he stated coolly.
I turned around as Hannibal walked toward me with an axe, pulled back, ready to strike. I couldn't move fast enough!
"W-what's--," I started, inching backwards.
"You, my dear, are my next recipe."
I clumsily ran backwards, hitting a bowl of lemons off the counter.
"Shoonk" replied the axe as Hannibal took his first and only swing.
My head fell slowly to the lemon-adorned floor.

cheezestix @ 2007-05-13T09:10:00

2007-05-13T13:14:12Z

Employers really like to grab you by the balls.
I ran into Donna, who I worked with at the Picture People. She's the studio manager at the portrait studio in Wal-Mart, so she gave me the number of one of the big wigs to get me a job. I called the lady; Jessica; and she sounded all excited to meet with me and get me a job and whatnot. I guess they really need employees. She said I could put my application into Oneonta and start training there until I moved back. Sounded great. She said she would call me before lunch on the same day.
It's now been over a week and I've tried calling her back and leaving her a voicemail.
I mean SERIOUSLY. How much of a jerk can you be? EVERY employer I've had the freaking wonderful pleasure of dealing with always does asshole shit like this.
Whatever. I'll just ask Donna for an application myself.

cheezestix @ 2007-05-07T15:49:00

2007-05-07T19:51:06Z

Tomorrow is going to be a GREAT day!

hahahaha.

2007-05-04T03:22:08Z

rat19861 (11:18:43 PM): You look too young. Start wrinkling.

cheezestix @ 2006-12-04T04:47:00

2006-12-04T04:47:05Z

I miss how she pooped standing up, or pooped doing the "monopod;" lifting 3 legs off the ground. How she'd carry things around in her mouth like a puppy. Or wake you up with her whiskers on your face. How she'd suck & massage the blanket. How when you pet her in the ear she would push her head towards you. The way she'd attack you then want to be pet. Or when she put her arms around her food dish so it couldn't escape. When I poured food on her & she'd purr. Watching her beat Susie up or annoy the hell out of Kittoon & take any swat that Kittoon gave her, not getting the message.

I miss Jenny.

yeah, i'm lazy. i posted this two places.

2006-11-14T00:29:01Z

So Jeff & I found an apartment in Oneonta. Doesn't cost too much & it's pretty much right between school & town. Nice & close to everything. It's small, but cozy, so I like it. The one thing we can't remember is if it had a living room or not, haha. If not, there's another one right above it. It's bigger & it had a shower in the kitchen, hahaha. That was the reason we almost got it, but it's $50 more a month, so we went with our decision logically.
So our address hopefully will be:
43 Spruce St.
Apt. 4
Oneonta, NY 13820.
They had to do a credit check. I just hope my credit isn't so new that they don't accept us. We'll have to get a co-signer, oddly enough.
Also, we got free furniture from the people that used to live in the shower in the kitchen apartment.
Maybe we'll have a apartment-warming party! Yay.
Also, I think I have a job in a coffee shop, so that's cool.
It all seems to be going pretty easily.. for now..

cheezestix @ 2006-10-28T16:48:00

2006-10-28T17:14:14Z

I always forget about this thing. Well, here I am at 1pm waiting to eat lunch with my mom because we said 11 & she isn't here. Like usual.
So things are going pretty good. I got a new job. No more customer service. Sweeet. I make $7.75 an hour, blech, but it's more than the Picture People. & I work at least 40 hours a week. Four 10 hour days, so I get Friday, Saturday, & Sunday off, but my bedtime is at 9:30 & I wake up at 5:30. So the weekdays are completely shot for me, but the weekend is great.
Jeff & I are still dating. :) He's great, he really is. Now that I have someone who treats me like an equal, I think more & more about how shitty a person Todd was to me. I hate him for it. I guess it's partly my fault for letting him walk all over me, but good God, how low can you make the person you "love" feel? Oh well, thank God that's over.
Jeff & I are saving up to move to Oneonta. We should have a couple thousand, but hopefully we can find jobs from now until January, since Oneonta hasn't even started looking at applications yet. I don't even know if I'll get in, but I've been told I had a good chance. I'm just going off of hope, really. But we have to find an apartment in like a week or two if I do get in. Who knows if we can do it. Bah, stress.
I miss high school where the only responsibilities I had were homework & cheerleading. I've realized I've come to the point in my life where I'll never be able to not have a job again. Where I'll always be paying bills & worrying about money. It sucks. Growing up sucks.
Oh well, I guess I'll cook lunch now.

now i have styx in my head.

2006-08-23T17:31:00Z

In two words, explain what ended your last relationship? Selfish bastard.

Your prom night? I was in a dress that looked crappy because I made it & my hair got wet & shitty from rain.

Do you have any famous ancestors? No.

Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school? I'll have to next semester, I'm sure.

Last thing received in the mail? A CD I bought for Jeff.

How many different beverages have you drank today? White grape juice is all, I believe.

Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines? Yuck, I hate it.

Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to? Sheryl Crow, haha.

What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? Getting my wisdom teeth hurt only after the anestesia wore off.

What is out your back door? Table, chairs, huge ass grill.

Any plans for Friday night? working.

Do you like what the ocean does to your hair? Not really.

Have you ever been to a planetarium? Yes.

Some things you are excited about? Getting a letter back from Oneonta, picking Jeff up from work... Oneonta..

What is your favorite flavor of JELLO? Lime all the wayyy!

Describe your keychain: It's a Special Forces keychain that says "mess with the best, die like the rest." I think I got it from my grandma.

Where do you keep your change? In a water thing or in my car.

When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people? When we did final critiques in photography classes.

What kind of winter coat do you have? A brown long one from H&M & a rainbow peacoat.

What was the weather like on your graduation day? I don't remember, but it was inside & it was night by the time we got out.

Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Always closed.

Something purple within 10 feet of you? Writing on a Queen poster.

Sexiest item you own? Hm, maybe my red lace tanktop thing.

Weirdest item you've put in the microwave? Ice cream, haha.

How much Japanese do you know? Does "Mr. Roboto" count?

Do you look good in yellow? I hope so. Best color ever.

Do you sing? Yes. But when I am by myself & no one can see/hear me.

Ever danced naked in front of a crowd? Hah, no.

Do you spit or smoke? Don't chew, but I don't smoke cigarettes.

Least favorite color? Purple probably.

Ever played an instrument? Clarinet & I tried teaching myself trumpet but so far all I know is Mary Had a Little Lamb.

Do you believe in Big Foot? Hah, no.

Ever been to a palm reader? Nah those things are lame.

What are you thinking about right now? I don't want to work 7 8-hour shifts in a row.

Ever had a black eye? One time Todd kneed me in the eye, haha.

Current dissappointment? I want my USB cable back for my camera.

Favorite drinks? Cherry 7-Up. Lemonade!

Does anything hurt on your body right now? My back from sitting like a cavewoman.

Where did you last ride a taxi? In New York City.

Last alcoholic drink you had? Um.. some pineapple rum a long time ago. Ew.

What were you doing last night? Television, sex, computer, food.

Did you do the deed on prom night? No, hahaha. "the deed."

Favorite food ever? Grape leaves. OMG. Want some nowwwwwwww.

cheezestix @ 2006-08-05T01:07:00

2006-08-05T05:08:47Z

How did I get so lucky?

/boredom.

2006-06-30T17:26:53Z

Yay!
Darien Lake on Monday with my love Courtney. (for free!)
Oneonta on Friday.
and I get to work Tuesday, Wednesday & Thursday.

I can't wait for next week.

On another note, I really want to go to SUNY Oneonta. But I can't apply until August. Well, I've got my Oneonta application all filled out, essay & all, but I have to apply into the SUNY system online & it's closed until August. I can't wait.
I want this so bad.
Courtney & I have a plan: I move to Oneonta in January, live on campus until summer, then move back home. We find an apartment in Oneonta between semesters. Courtney will have finished school & will rake up a lot of money between May & August. & I will work back at the Picture People & find have another job. Then she will look for a job at the hospital in Oneonta & we will get an apartment together that allows pets & we'll buy ferrets. I really want it to happen!

If anyone knows any apartments in Oneonta that allow pets, let me know!

-audrey.

bored.

2006-06-13T16:15:20Z

GRAB YOUR CELLPHONE

01. who is the phone maker?
LG.

02 what does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
A ghost? It looks like one?

03 who was your last missed call from?
Todd.

04 who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
Dan Saunders.

05 what does the last message in your inbox say?
Nite.

06.who's the 3rd person who comes up under J?
Jessica.

07.whos the 4th person who comes up under S?
Shannon.

12. what does your welcome note say?
I don't have one.

13. how many messages are currently in your inbox?
65.

14. what's your wallpaper?
Chester sticking his head out the car window.

15. who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
I only have 1.

16. who's the 5th person under T?
I only have 2.

17. if you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
--

18. who's the first person who comes up under A?
Allen Davis. aka William Taylor, haha.

19. how many bars of signal do you currently have?
It switches between no service & 2 bars at my house.

20. do u have a camera phone?
yes.

21. do u have any nude pix in your album?
no ew.

22. what does your 2nd msg in your outbox say?
Nope. I'm going to Cindi's though.

23. how many numbers do you have on your phone?
62.

24. how many people are stored under with a M name?
7.

25. do you like your phone?
yeah sure.

cheezestix @ 2006-05-20T00:11:00

2006-05-20T04:13:48Z

I don't deserve love.
Because no matter how much I give, it's not enough. I can't get anything in return.
He just keeps hurting me & doesn't care.
What happened to him? Where did the Todd that I fell in love with go?
He was great for a day. Now we're back to where we were.
What did I do to deserve to be treated like shit all the time?
I just want to know..

cheezestix @ 2006-04-14T19:57:00

2006-04-15T00:07:23Z

Ten Firsts:
1. First Best Friend: Shannon.
2. First Screen Name: SnoGurl182 hahah.
3. First Pet: Jade.
4. First Piercing: Ears.
5. First Crush: Whoa, no idea.
6. First person you kissed: Haha, no way am I saying that. I'll say the second: Todd.
7. First Car of Your Own: Saturnbeast.
8. First Stuffed Animal: Because I remember that.
9. First Word: Manifesto.
10. First Extended Period Away from Home: I don't remember.

Nine Lasts:
1. Last Alcoholic Beverage: Mike's Hard Berry, which was like my first AND last.
2. last Car Ride: To here from Patty's.
3. Last Movie Seen: Slither, hahaha.
4. Last Phone Call: Toddy.
5. Last CD Played: Mad Caddies.
6. Last Bubble Bath: About a month ago.
7. Last Time You Cried: A couple days agol.
8. Last Time You Laughed: I don't know.
9. Last Words Said: "So.. I have $600 to spend."

Eight "Have You Ever"s:
1. Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Not really. A good friend.
2. Have you ever been arrested: No.
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: Yes.
4. Have you ever been on TV: No idea.
5. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Pft, no.
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you know? Yeah.
7. Have you ever been asked for sex: Everyday, haha.
8. Have you ever been in a car accident/crash: Yes. It was the death of the Saturn.

Seven Things You're Wearing:
1. Jeans.
2. Get Up Kids shirt.
3. Brown striped shirt.
4. Brown long sleeve hoodie shirt thing.
5. Black jacket.
6. Brown shoes.
7. Todd ring.

Six Things You Did Today (since midnight):
1. Shower.
2. Work.
3. Ate Subway.
4. Went to Wal-Mart.
5. Went to Salvo.
6. Went to John's.

Five Favorite Things in No Particular Order:
1. Toddy/Family/Friends.
2. CANON EOS 20D I WANT IT SO BAD.
3. Television.
4. Portrait Photography. (If anyone wants their picture taken, I'LL GLADLY DO IT.)
5. Portrait Photography gets two because I love it so much.

Four Choices:
1. Black or White: Black.
2. Hot or Cold weather: Hot.
3. Chocolate or Vanilla Ice cream: Chocolate.
4. Coffee or Tea: Tea.

Three People You Can Tell Anything:
1. My mom.
2. Todd.
3. Courtney.

Two Things You Want to do Before You Die:
1. Sky dive.
2. Get married.

One Thing You Regret:
1. Most things because I'm an f-ing idiot that screws everything up.

cheezestix @ 2006-03-06T21:32:00

2006-03-07T02:45:03Z

Q: what's the last text message on your cell phone say ?:
A: "Thank u" from Todd.

Q: whose bed did you sleep in last night ?:
A: Mine for the first time in about a month. With Todd, of course.

Q: what color shirt are you wearing ?:
A: Black t-shirt/tan sweater.

Q: most recent movie that you watched ?:
A: Bruce Almighty.

Q: name one thing that you do everyday ?:
A: Kiss Todd.

Q: what's the color of your bedroom walls?:
A: Yellow with red trim.

Q: how much cash do you have on you right now ?:
A : Like 3 dollars, but I just sold my bass on eBay so I'm getting lotttts.

Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: You know that they used to just throw away the wings?

Q: I can't wait til...?
A: HCCC is over.

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: This morning.

Q: Who got you to join myspace?
A: Dane Cook.

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: Um.. Burger King. Yuck. Oh! The microphone was facing towards the line & Todd said "Drinks are on the house" into it. hahahahahha.

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: No.

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: A pup.

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: Who does that?

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: eBay, AOLmail, Myspace, livejournal.

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: No.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: I did at college.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My head.

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A: NYC.

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: Yeah.

Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: Caramel Macciato Latte! I don't know how to spell that.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Not that long ago, I think.

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: No.

_______Last________
1. Person you saw: Todd.
2. Talk on the phone with: Todd.
3. Hugged: Todd.
4. IM: Courtney.
5. song you listened to: Streetlight Manifesto's "Point/Couterpoint." I sang it to Chester.

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now: Watching TV.
2. What are you doing tonight: Sleeping soon.
3. What did you eat for lunch: Tuna.

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is: Tuesday.
2. Got any plans: School. Fuck school. Then the gynecologist.. yay! Haha. Then work. Blah.
3. Goal: I don't know.
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Everything.
5. Do you have work: Yes.

________Currently_________
1. love someone: Definetly.
2. Missing someone: Toddy.
3. Mood: Sleepy.

cheezestix @ 2006-02-08T20:04:00

2006-02-09T01:24:12Z

A- Available: no.

B- Best Friend: john.

C- Crush: --

D- Dads name: jerome.

E- Easiest person of the opposite sex to talk to: no one.

G- Gummy Bears, or Worms?: the sour gummy bears.

H- Hometown: levittown.

I- Instrument: trumpet.

K- Kids: bleh.

L- Longest Car Ride: i don't know. probably VA when i was little.

M- Milk Flavor: chocolate.

N- Number Of siblings: 0.

O- One wish: to feel wanted, to be able to talk to, and to be loved, respected & not called stupid by my boyfriend.

P- Phobias: death. bees.

Q- Favorite Quote: who knows.

R- Reason To Smile: --

S- Song you last heard: don't remember.

U- Unknown fact about me: i hate hot air blown in my face.

V- Vegetable you hate: none.

W- Worst Habit: i don't know.

X- X-rays you've had: chest, back, hip, ankles, teeth.

Z- Zodiac Sign: gemini.

*~**Everyone has their firsts...**~*

First real best friend: shannon.

First school: some catholic preschool.

First Cellphone: nokia.

First pet: cat.

First piercing/tattoo: ears/freddie.

First big trip: don't know.

First flight: --.

First Celebrity Love: johnathan taylor thomas.

First time out of the country: senior trip to canada.

****Everyone has their lasts...****

Last person you hugged: todd.

Last time you cried: yesterday.

Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: todd.

Last shirt worn: ohio shirt.

Last phone call: todd.

Last thing you touched: garbage to take it out.

Last time at the mall: monday @ work.

Last time you were excited about something: i don't know.

Last person you saw: my mom.

Last thing you drank: soda.

Last person to break your heart: todd.

Last time you have been truly, 100 % Happy? this summer.

cheezestix @ 2006-02-04T01:05:00

2006-02-04T06:06:32Z

Would anyone like to buy my bass?

Click here!

bored & watching american idol rejections.

2006-02-02T01:04:15Z

Type your FIRST REACTION when you hear these 35 words:

1. I need some: ice cream.

2. Sex: is awesome when it dosen't suck.

3. Relationships: are good.

4. Your Last Ex: steve.

5. Power: strip.

6. Marijuana: is fun.

7. Crack: butt.

8. Food: YUM.

9. The President: "it's clearly a budget. it's got a lot of numbers in it."

10. War: XXXXXXXXXX

11. Cars: Yay VW Cabrio when it runs.

12. Gas Prices: SUCK.

13. Halloween: meh.

14. Politics: suck.

15. Religion: Six kids, Catholic.

16. Myspace: meh.

17. Worst Fear: oh jeez. death, probably.

18. Marriage: i want.

19. Fashion: i love everything about it.

20. Brunettes: are sexay.

21. Redheads: are cool.

22: Work: HATE.

23: Pass the time: driving.

24: Football: gay.

25. One night stands: gay.

26: Pet Peeve: lots. people who chew with their mouths open. ignorance.

27: Pixie Stix: oh yum.

28: Vanilla Ice: QUEEN SONG STEALER.

29: Porta Potties: gross.

30: High school: was cool.

31: Pajamas: rule.

32. Wood: heh heh.. woody.

33. Surfers: okay.

34. Pictures: i better like them since i'm a photo major.

35. boyfriend/girlfriend: i love my toddy. 8 months tomorrow.

cheezestix @ 2006-01-25T13:38:00

2006-01-25T18:39:55Z

We're famous!

The Onion.

cheezestix @ 2006-01-18T18:45:00

2006-01-18T23:49:40Z

I WANT MY CAR SO BAD.
I'm tired of waiting.
Saturday is the ABSOLUTE latest I'll get it, but still.
I'm so impatientttttttt.
Hopefully I'll get it Friday, when the loan FINALLY goes through.
Gah it's been almost 2 weeks.
Whine whine whine.
I have nothing better to do.

I love Todd. We're good together.